well lets see it has been some time so ill just put up whats been going on for the last few months. hmm...i had my son in sept. was watching a friends kid but got used so i told them i could not do it any more. J and i are going to get married but we are putting it off for a while till we know what all we need and if i am going to go to school or what not. i am going to go get anita just as soon as the car gets fixed from waly worlds f-up. yeah thats been fun trying to get fixed...anyway

thats just a sum up of what has happened.

i had a bad day yesterday. i got a call at like 4:30am with some guy telling me my dad was in the hospital. and i was still half asleep when i answered the phone so i didnt even look at the number. so i cry all day and then i had my lil girl crying and trying to take care of her the whole time i wanted to just get in my call and go to TN to see my dad but i had to work so i went to work crying. i get off and still had goten not word of how my dad was doing so i called my brother. he was at home and he said dad was fine and at home with him and was never at the hospital. so i was like wtf. and i was going to call that number back but it was a blocked number. then i got online to calm myself down and find out that someone is getting fired from work and two of my friends and i was on the firing list and non of us did anything. we know who is doing the stuff and so that made me mad too. but yeah i have to go drive in some snow and try and make it to what i need to do and get home with out getting killed so ill have to update more another time.

so yeah i have been working on some stories, but i never seem to like them enough to get on with them i have ideas come from all over but putting them on paper is hard cuz my mind flys so fast. and getting time to work on them is hard too. but i do have one chapter on one story but i don't think im done with it so im going to go over it again some time to redo it. it takes me like a year to get one chapter cuz i keep going back and redoing it. well i guess ill get a book out there some time.